ice_o_lator

“forcibly thrusting”

2008-08-09T22:35:45Z

http://en.epochtimes.com/n2/united-states/student-falls-san-francisco-olympics-protest-2387.html

if this is true then some sort of investigation should be pending....no?

this city(toronto) is beginning to feel like vancouver...or seattle.

rain and more rain.

i've heard news of americans being deported for demonstrating in tienanmen square
and reports of others being detained (disappeared) for the same.

also some americans got stabbed...one of them to death by a suicidal fellow..in china.
not much about that on CNN.

i'm boycotting coverage of any actual sporting events and just trying to stay tuned into the voice of dissent.

"Satta Massagana Ahamlack, ulaghize"

2008-08-05T21:02:57Z

Amharic, meaning : "give thanks and praise to God continually".

they were here performing at Harbourfront for free on sunday.
a service we were able to attend.
all of us...a bit older now but still alive with dance and sound.
a blessing.
peaceful ,righteous vibes in violent, wicked times.
uplifting uprising in the soul.
many thanks and praises.
blessed be.

"Look into the book of life and you will see..."

this song was written by an american.one who asks...."why?"

2008-07-29T18:23:52Z

Drink The Kool-Aid by Ramallah

Here come the 757's.

If you don't ask why then you deserve to die
just like the millions that are ground under foot
by the powers-that-be and their policies
and a society that let's their bosses do as they please
and never asks "why?" even as the death tolls rise
until some 757's start to fall from the sky
and some more innocent die
and STILL we don't ask "why?"
instead we fall in line
and we drink up the Kool-Aid

If they shot Kennedy just imagine what they'll do to you or me,
but you STILL believe...

So burn then coward,
but don't you dare pray.
Burn then,
for what's been done in your name.
So fucking burn then.
You had your chance:
now it's time to die.
Burn then.
You drank the Kool-Aid, fool,
so die.

If you don't ask why then you deserve to die;
(BTW) that little sticker of a flag on your car means nothing.
For the terror you've allowed in your name,
when the planes fall again,
your prayers will mean nothing.

If they shot Kennedy just imagine what they'll do to you and me,
but you still believe all their lies, HA!
That sticker of a flag on your car means nothing
and when the sky falls again
your prayers will mean nothing.

So burn then coward,
but don't you dare pray.
Burn then,
for what's been done in your name.
So fucking burn then.
You had your chance:
now it's time to die.
Burn then.
You drank the Kool-Aid, fool,
so die.
Die then, sucker,
but don't you pray.
Die then, fool, and burn for your shame.
So fucking burn then.
You had your chance:
now it's time to die.
Burn then.
You drank the Kool-Aid, fool,
so die.

Drink up. Die.

The hour's late and we're so far astray
but we refuse to see that the end of the party is near.
And all that hatred and rage we've made
is coming at us just like a jet plane.

"..most of the time i'm a peaceful man but i lost my temper that day..."

2008-07-29T18:10:57Z

it is my belief that north america culturally peaked with this album

and has been on a fast forward downward slide
into shit smeared mediocrity and brutal stupidity ever since.

it is also my belief (and i know this puts me at risk of being unpopular
in certain circles) that if america elects john mccain it should be wiped
off the face...or arse end...of the world.
the world has run out of patience with that particular brand
of idiocy.saying sorry isn't gonna cut it this time.
also...the communists..or rather fascist dictators of china can
go fuck themselves and should also be wiped away
forever so a clean slate can be started.

i am always surprised when i meet an american who is truly ignorant of how the world outside america feels about america.
same with the chinese.
a lot of the world has lost it's patience and are well and truly fed up
with america.more so than with china.
most people i talk to here in canada who are from "third world" countries
do not fear america.they are enraged by it and want to see it destroyed.
i'm not kidding.
the woman who runs the shop where i rent movies said to me the other day.... in a hushed whisper...that 9/11 was the greatest moment in recent global history.it made her happy.
she would like to see it happen again...only worse.more casualties.
she is not a terrorist...a radical...or anything else that you might imagine her to be.
she is a generous,intelligent,articulate,educated,sweet person
who has great taste in movies and a family and you would never
suspect she harboured such resentment and anger towards america or anywhere else for that matter.
she is one of thousands i have met and talked to in my travels
who is truly fed up with america.
the fear of america that the world used to feel has morphed into rage..
as long term fear usually does.
the terrorism that america has unleashed on the rest of the world is coming home to roost like a chicken with a mean hangover.

i have many american friends and the love of my life used to be american.
(not by birth,through immigration)

i myself don't have any beef with anyone from america on a personal level.
but i can tell you honestly...that i watched those planes hit those towers
on "live" tv.and i cheered"about fucking time!"
i was not alone.every single person i know in canada that i talked with
within 24 hours of the event expressed the same sentiment.

america has made many enemies and in my opinion can only blame itself for
any blow back it gets as a result of it's terrorizing the world at large.

if you live in a glass tower.... don't throw stones.
and if you can't take blows then don't throw blows.

both america and china need and deserve a serious fucking beat down.
the only way they can remedy this situation is to stop being such
fucking assholes.try to make amends.and even then...it may be too late.
shit is most likely going to hit the fan even in the event of an apology and
some kind of gesture of goodwill.

now i'll just sit here and try to decide whether or not i should post this "friends only".
if i don't some fucking agents are probably going to travel north of the border,kick my door in and
save the world from my opinions which are not only unpopular in america but somewhat illegal.just ask that myspace kid out in california.

my opinions though...in canada,europe,asia...everywhere i have traveled...
are commonly held ones.

america...china...you have far more foes than you can possibly imagine.
most of your "friends" will turn on you as soon as they no longer fear you....if they haven't already.

get it together or fuck off.
and when you do get smacked back for all the shit you have done...
don't be such whining babies about it.
we here living outside of your confines are heartily sick of it.

if you vote republican this year...you deserve what is coming your way.
if you are a member of the communist elite in china...your days are numbered.

over and fucking out.

"All our neighbors complain all the time,Really don't understand my kind.."

2008-07-23T19:20:48Z

my brother payed me a visit last night.
i haven't seen him in over ten years...i think.
it was good.i'm glad S was there....
it was surreal.we've both gone and gotten old.
grey hairs and lined faces....so strange.
i'm an uncle.i have a beautiful four year old nephew
who i want to meet soon.
my brother looked tired and a bit pale but happy.
someone who spends too much time in a cubicle.
we're so different.
me with my urban guerrilla farming.him with his
corporate/government straight J.O.B. and lifestyle.
he's always wanted a normal life and i'm glad he has one.
it seems to make him happy.
i don't remember a time when my life was normal.ever.
i don't believe normal exists.but each to their own.
so much time has passed.forgiveness just kind of happened.all of a sudden.
i've missed him a lot. i think we both don't need to say much about the past to understand it now.
we can just move on and be brothers.
he's a good chap.helps out old friends in need.
does everything for his kid.
he's given up the weed and doesn't drink much any more which is good.
god that was strange after all this time.
my mother it seems is still alive.i have no desire to ever speak with her again.
not so much a matter of forgiving.just don't feel like wasting any of the time i have left
on someone or something that hasn't and wont change.
my brother and i have grown inside
so we are able to be brothers again.. i hope.
through him i can locate my aunt who i also miss...and a few cousins that i miss too.
also some good old friends of both my father and i.
brings up a lot though....seeing him.
a lot of years...a lot of tears...a lot of beers.
but it's good to see him.
to know i have family that cares whether or not i am dead or alive.
it's been a very long time since i've had any family.
my friends are my family.and now it seems my family are my friends.well,some of them...
or at least one of them.

this is all...just very.....strange...

"...beneath his robes beats a heart of metal."

2008-07-18T18:46:39Z

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/europe/7513058.stm

Brother Cesare in action with his band

now that man has THROAT!

At first glance, Cesare Bonizzi looks like the archetypal Capuchin monk - round-faced, stout, with twinkling eyes and a long flowing white beard. But beneath his robes beats a heart of metal.

Brother Cesare is the lead singer in a heavy metal band which has just released its second album.

A former missionary in the Ivory Coast, he lives in a small friary in the Milan hinterland.

The 62-year-old monk's love affair with heavy metal began when he attended a Metallica concert some 15 years ago.

"I was overwhelmed and amazed by the sheer energy of it" he says.

Brother Metal

Hard rock and heavy metal have, over the years, been criticised as the work of the devil.

It's a claim which Brother Cesare, also known as Brother Metal, says is nonsense.

He started playing and recording cassettes, firstly with "lighter" metal music, but gradually he realised that what really moved him was the hard core.

People think that I am in fancy dress, they can't believe a robed monk is on the stage playing their music

Brother Cesare Bonizzi

The members of his band were at first sceptical at the idea of teaming up with a Capuchin monk but their doubts soon evaporated.

"Five minutes after meeting Brother Cesare I decided to go ahead, because he manages to convey so much energy, that other musicians and youngsters often don't manage to express," lead guitarist, Cesare Zanotti, told Reuters.

Sex, drugs and alcohol

Brother Metal recently appeared in the Gods of Metal festival in Italy, along with giants such as Iron Maiden, Judas Priest and Slayer, playing to a crowd of leather-clad hard-core metal fans.

"It was wonderful being there among all these young people" he told the Rome newspaper La Repubblica.

"The only problem was that at one stage out slipped a "what the f…" because each time some people think that I am in fancy dress, they can't believe a robed monk is on the stage playing their music".

With a booming voice, Brother Metal belts out lyrics that are decidedly gritty, talking about real-life issues and not shying away from sex, drugs and alcohol.

He does touch on faith and religion but is adamant that he is not seeking to draw people to Catholicism through his stage performances.

Video clips of his performances on YouTube have helped spread his popularity and fan base.

Devotion to God

His second heavy metal album, "Misteri" (Mysteries) has just been released.

In a sign of Brother Metal's eclecticism, it drew inspiration from a group of women in southern Italy who sang about Mary, the mother of Jesus, and a heavy metal version of that song is on the CD.

Other songs talk about how alcohol warms the heart but excess drinking can damage the liver, and how important sex is to man.

Brother Cesare says he has never had any trouble with his superiors over his choice of musical career and would like to send his new album to the Pope. "He is a music lover and metal is music!" he says.

While Brother Cesare always wears his traditional brown robe and sandals as a reminder that he has chosen a life of devotion to God, he is keen to distinguish established religion from faith, and from proselytising.

"I do it to convert people to life, to understand life, to grab hold of life, to savour it and enjoy it. Full stop" he says.

Amen Brother

ice_o_lator @ 2008-07-15T16:48:00

2008-07-15T21:12:38Z

http://www.passiveaggressivenotes.com/

"As they grow under shifting skies We'll see every nation in their eyes"

2008-04-11T22:03:58Z

http://www.freetibet.org/campaigns/olympic_07/index.php

please take a moment to sign this petition.
thank you.

"And we know this is the model to follow
For all the dub children of tomorrow"

"i man want equal rights..and justice"

2008-04-10T21:51:30Z

Tibetan Global Day of Action

2008-03-31T15:05:19Z

"It's been so long
We need a change
So the shitstem we got to rearrange
And if there's obstacles in the road,
we got to throw them overboard.
Oh bumbo klaat, oh ras klaat"

http://www.tibetnetwork.org/march31

where ever you are; try to get out there today to support Tibet.
the inactivity by the world at large in response to a brutal and oppressive occupation is as much a cause of the suffering of Tibetans is as
the actions of the people who are occupying Tibet.

Talk - Action = 0

let the dead bury the dead and who is to be fed, be fed.

2008-01-08T17:43:49Z

"Time alone - oh, time will tell:
Think you're in heaven, but ya living in hell;"

Robert Nesta Marley

"I'm like a stepping razor
Don't you watch my size
I'm dangerous, dangerous "

Peter Tosh

liars,thieves,charlatans,publicans...wicked ones...duppies...evil doers...racists...haters of every kind...bad men....bad women.. i call you all out in the street to meet your fate in this new year.a spiritual and literal beat down you will get and none will be left standing but those with good pure hearts in the end.
the battle grows hotter and even as i make plans for an eventual retreat and an eternal cessation of hostilities... for the moment i still fight for what is right.

this year i resolve to try harder,ease off,chill out,love more,make more love,fight back,get up,stand up,do the right thing,tolerate no bullshit...no evil..
and spend as much time in the presence of my Angel as possible.
i still believe in what it is i believe in.i still stand for all i stand for.
i still love what is good in this life and despise what is wicked and corrupt.
if you are someone who does as much or more as speaks i have time for you.
if you are trying to better yourself and the world you live in i have time for you.
if you try...always to do what you know to be the the right thing i have time for you.
if you are filled with hate and selfishness back off.if you are a racist or homophobic,sexist or in any other way a close minded short sighted fool...get the fuck out of the way
or suffer the consequences.
your brand of stupdity reveals your deeply felt insecurities and self loathing and unless you can rid yourself of all of the above...expect no mercy from me.no give...no quarter...not one fucking inch.
if you are a thief or liar who plans on thieving from me and mine or lying to me and mine "watch my size,i'm dangerous".
if you have any intention on ever fucking with me or mine i will destroy you completely.
if you have any intention of working with me and mine to make this place a better place i welcome you with a smiling face,an open heart and the will and strength to do the work.
what hasn't killed me HAS made me stronger.
the most wonderful creature ever created gives me strength.god gives me strength,the 'erb gives me strength and i have my own deep well of strength i draw from daily.

i long for peace....but i am not a peaceful man.

i'm a fighter and always will be.

so as we are born into it...so shall we be.

i came in fighting and will probably go out fighting.

there can be no peace without justice.

i believe...

that this is gonna be a good year.

the word for 08 is HOPE.

Military Intelligence and other oxymorons...

2007-10-15T02:05:22Z

The Geopolitical Foundations of Blackwater
By George Friedman

For the past three weeks, Blackwater, a private security firm under contract to the U.S. State Department, has been under intense scrutiny over its operations in Iraq. The Blackwater controversy has highlighted the use of civilians for what appears to be combat or near-combat missions in Iraq. Moreover, it has raised two important questions: Who controls these private forces and to whom are they accountable?
The issue is neither unique to Blackwater nor to matters of combat. There have long been questions about the role of Halliburton and its former subsidiary, KBR, in providing support services to the military. The Iraq war has been fought with fewer active-duty troops than might have been expected, and a larger number of contractors relative to the number of troops. But how was the decision made in the first place to use U.S. nongovernmental personnel in a war zone? More important, how has that decision been implemented?
The United States has a long tradition of using private contractors in times of war. For example, it augmented its naval power in the early 19th century by contracting with privateers -- nongovernmental ships -- to carry out missions at sea. During the battle for Wake Island in 1941, U.S. contractors building an airstrip there were trapped by the Japanese fleet, and many fought alongside Marines and naval personnel. During the Civil War, civilians who accompanied the Union and Confederate armies carried out many of the supply functions. So, on one level, there is absolutely nothing new here. This has always been how the United States fights war.
Nevertheless, since before the fall of the Soviet Union, a systematic shift has been taking place in the way the U.S. force structure is designed. This shift, which is rooted both in military policy and in the geopolitical perception that future wars will be fought on a number of levels, made private security contractors such as KBR and Blackwater inevitable. The current situation is the result of three unique processes: the introduction of the professional volunteer military, the change in force structure after the Cold War, and finally the rethinking and redefinition of the term "noncombatant" following the decision to include women in the military, but bar them from direct combat roles.
The introduction of the professional volunteer military caused a rethinking of the role of the soldier, sailor, airman or Marine in the armed forces. Volunteers were part of the military because they chose to be. Unlike draftees, they had other options. During World War II and the first half of the Cold War, the military was built around draftees who were going to serve their required hitch and return to civilian life. Although many were not highly trained, they were quite suited for support roles, from KP to policing the grounds. After all, they already were on the payroll, and new hires were always possible.
In a volunteer army, the troops are expected to remain in the military much longer. Their training is more expensive -- thus their value is higher. Taking trained specialists who are serving at their own pleasure and forcing them to do menial labor over an extended period of time makes little sense either from a utilization or morale point of view. The concept emerged that the military's maintenance work should shift to civilians, and that in many cases the work should be outsourced to contractors. This tendency was reinforced during the Reagan administration, which, given its ideology, supported privatization as a way to make the volunteer army work. The result was a growth in the number of contractors taking over many of the duties that had been performed by soldiers during the years of conscription.
The second impetus was the end of the Cold War and a review carried out by then-Secretary of Defense Les Aspin under then-President Bill Clinton. The core argument was that it was irrational to maintain a standing military as large as had existed during the Cold War. Aspin argued for a more intensely technological military, one that would be less dependent on ground troops. The Air Force was key to this, while the Navy was downsized. The main consideration, however, was the structure of the standing Army -- especially when large-scale, high-intensity, long-term warfare no longer seemed a likely scenario.
The U.S. Army's active-duty component, in particular, was reduced. It was assumed that in time of war, components of the Reserves and National Guard would be mobilized, not so much to augment the standing military, but to carry out a range of specialized roles. For example, Civil Affairs, which has proven to be a critical specialization in Iraq and Afghanistan, was made a primary responsibility of the Reserves and National Guard, as were many engineering, military-intelligence and other specializations.
This plan was built around certain geopolitical assumptions. The first was that the United States would not be fighting peer powers. The second was that it had learned from Vietnam not to get involved in open-ended counterinsurgency operations, but to focus, as it did in Kuwait, on missions that were clearly defined and executable with a main force. The last was that wars would be short, use relatively few troops and be carried out in conjunction with allies. From this it followed that regular forces, augmented by Reserve/National Guard specialists called up for short terms, could carry out national strategic requirements.
The third impetus was the struggle to define military combat and noncombat roles. Given the nature of the volunteer force, women were badly needed, yet they were included in the armed forces under the assumption that they could carry out any function apart from direct combat assignments. This caused a forced -- and strained -- redefinition of these two roles. Intelligence officers called to interrogate a prisoner on the battlefield were thought not to be in a combat position. The same bomb, mortar or rocket fire that killed a soldier might hit them too, but since they technically were not charged with shooting back, they were not combat arms. Ironically, in Iraq, one of the most dangerous tasks is traveling on the roads, though moving supplies is not considered a combat mission.
Under the privatization concept, civilians could be hired to carry out noncombat functions. Under the redefinition of noncombat, the area open to contractors covered a lot of territory. Moreover, under the redefinition of the military in the 1990s, the size and structure of the Army in particular was changed so dramatically that it could not carry out most of its functions without the Reserve/Guard component -- and even with that component, the Army was not large enough. Contractors were needed.
Let us now add a fourth push: the CIA. During Vietnam, and again in Afghanistan and Iraq, a good part of the war was prosecuted by CIA personnel not in uniform and not answerable to the military chain of command. There are arguments on both sides for this, but the fact is that U.S. wars -- particularly highly politicized wars such as counterinsurgencies -- are fought with parallel armies, some reporting to the Defense Department, others to the CIA and other intelligence agencies. The battlefield is, if not flooded, at least full of civilians operating outside of the chain of command, and these civilian government employees are encouraged to hire Iraqi or other nationals, as well as to augment their own capabilities with private U.S. contractors.
Blackwater works for the State Department in a capacity defined as noncombat, protecting diplomats and other high-value personnel from assassination. The Army, bogged down in its own operations, lacks the manpower to perform this obviously valuable work. That means that Blackwater and other contract workers are charged with carrying weapons and moving around the battlefield, which is everywhere. They are heavily armed private soldiers carrying out missions that are combat in all but name -- and they are completely outside of the chain of command.
Moreover, in order to be effective, they have to engage in protective intelligence, looking for surveillance by enemy combatants and trying to foresee potential threats. We suspect the CIA could be helpful in this regard, but it would want information in return. In order to perform its job, then, Blackwater entered the economy of intelligence -- information as a commodity to be exchanged. It had to gather some intelligence in order to trade some. As a result, the distinction between combat and support completely broke down.
The important point is that the U.S. military went to war with the Army the country gave it. We recall no great objections to the downsizing of the military in the 1990s, and no criticisms of the concepts that lay behind the new force structure. The volunteer force, downsized because long-term conflicts were not going to occur, supported by the Reserve/Guard and backfilled by civilian contractors, was not a controversial issue. Only tiresome cranks made waves, challenging the idea that wars would be sparse and short. They objected to the redefinition of noncombat roles and said the downsized force would be insufficient for the 21st century.
Blackwater, KBR and all the rest are the direct result of the faulty geopolitical assumptions and the force structure decisions that followed. The primary responsibility rests with the American public, which made best-case assumptions in a worst-case world. Even without Iraq, civilian contractors would have proliferated on the battlefield. With Iraq, they became an enormous force. Perhaps the single greatest strategic error of the Bush administration was not fundamentally re-examining the assumptions about the U.S. Army on Sept. 12, 2001. Clearly Donald Rumsfeld was of the view that the Army was the problem, not the solution. He was not going to push for a larger force and, therefore, as the war expanded, for fewer civilian contractors.
The central problem regarding private security contractors on the battlefield is that their place in the chain of command is not defined. They report to the State Department, not to the Army and Marines that own the battlefield. But who do they take orders from and who defines their mission? Do they operate under the Uniform Code of Military Justice or under some other rule? They are warriors -- it is foolish to think otherwise -- but they do not wear the uniform. The problem with Blackwater stems from having multiple forces fighting for the same side on the same battlefield, with completely different chains of command. Indeed, it is not clear the extent to which the State Department has created a command structure for its contractors, whether it is capable of doing so, or whether the contractors have created their own chain of command.
Blackwater is the logical outcome of a set of erroneous geopolitical conclusions that predate these wars by more than a decade. The United States will be fighting multidivisional, open-ended wars in multiple theaters, and there will be counterinsurgencies. The force created in the 1990s is insufficient, and thus the definition of noncombat specialty has become meaningless. The Reserve/Guard component cannot fill the gap created by strategic errors. The hiring of contractors makes sense and has precedence. But the use of CIA personnel outside the military chain of command creates enough stress. To have private contractors reporting outside the chain of command to government entities not able to command them is the real problem.
A failure that is rooted in the national consensus of the 1990s was compounded by the Bush administration's failure to reshape the military for the realities of the wars it wished to fight. But the final failure was to follow the logic of the civilian contractors through to its end, but not include them in the unified chain of command. In war, the key question must be this: Who gives orders and who takes them? The battlefield is dangerous enough without that question left hanging.

http://www.oxymoronlist.com/

Gruesome Greeting Cards

2007-10-11T00:36:21Z

ice_o_lator @ 2007-10-10T19:30:00

2007-10-10T23:30:40Z

Death Before Dying

2007-10-10T23:30:13Z

Eyes red,faces pale,rending sighs from every heart...
How far away has that perfumed face gone?
Love and musk cannot remain hidden;they must show themselves.
They are the true mystics,Bahu,whose place is "no place".

"no place" : la makan,meaning a location beyond the confines
of linear time and space.

from Death Before Dying:The Sufi Poems of Sultan Bahu

"...you never know when you might step in it..."

2007-10-10T22:33:26Z

" Well, they're baking up a Martian pie I hope the Martians like me And give some to I."

2007-10-08T20:02:56Z

Shiny Happy People!

One For Soma!!! :)

Two for The Sweetness that rules my heart!!!!!

all this and Ganesh too!!!!

Ganesh is going to remove all obstacles and maybe if i give him some milk
with honey he'll make it be december without there even needing to be
a november!

ice_o_lator @ 2007-10-08T00:21:00

2007-10-08T04:40:06Z

“….You see control can never be means to any practical end…. It can never be a means to anything but more control…. Like junk…”

W.S.Burroughs

"The nite's too quiet
Stretched out alone
I need the whip of thunder
And the wind's dark moan

I'm not Able, I'm just Cain
Open up the heavens
Make it rain!"

Tom Waits

"I come calling in my Sunday best....

2007-10-08T04:24:41Z

I'm gonna love you
Till the wheels come off
Oh yea"

ice_o_lator @ 2007-10-06T15:54:00

2007-10-06T20:03:56Z

Sacred Geometry

2007-10-04T06:36:38Z

wow!

http://mathworld.wolfram.com/FlowerofLife.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flower_of_Life

ice_o_lator @ 2007-09-21T08:45:00

2007-09-21T16:01:07Z

Happy Birthday Max!!!!

ice_o_lator @ 2007-09-21T07:27:00

2007-09-21T15:03:28Z

being unkind and mean always has made me feel like total
shit inside.i wonder how people can go through life being unkind and mean.
greed too...that must be just terrible..like having the biggest monkey
on your back ...the fiercest jones and no way to kick
because almost everything around you
tells you that your greed is a good and acceptable thing..it is encouraged.
awful.i don't take a moral high ground because i seem to have no greed in me...i just feel incredibly blessed that i wasn't born with a mean spirit..a cruel nature ...or a greedy soul.
that must be terrible.you could never hope to be happy
or feel satisfied with greed as your jones.nothing will ever be enough
when all you really need is very little to be happy in this life.
just one thing can be enough.
those who want everything always will never have anything.
as soon as they get one thing they want two..and the one thing means nothing to them.
that is the worst poverty imaginable for me.
if i had nothing but the one thing that carries me through the storm...
helps me walk through the fire with my head held high and a semblance of grace..
i would have all i need.
the best feeling i ever felt is when i finally gave up and let go of everything.almost as soon as i did i saw everything i really had and all that i didn't and realized i had all that i needed.
what i crave are not objects...but experiences.a wealth of life awaits
and if i have any part of me that experiences the feeling of being insatiable it is in my hunger for life and all the beauty and horrors it has to offer.
for even in horror their is beauty...there is life.
i don't want to own things.....it is often enough for
me to just see things.to experience them with all my senses and to feel them
with my soul is far more enjoyable and rewarding to me than
to want ownership over anything.
especially when it comes to other souls.i don't ever want to own
anyone and never have.even if i did it would be pointless..
you can't own anyone any more than you own the land you live on.
you can share ...but you can't possess a person.
you can't even really share yourself in my opinion...
until you have let go of yourself and left your self open enough to share.
that is such a terrifying prospect in our day and age that it has led to a lot of people sharing their lives but not their souls.
a lot of loneliness.
i've spent most of my life feeling incredibly alone.profoundly alone.
but now...even when i'm by my self i never feel alone.
for this more than anything else this life has taught me or offered me..
i am truly greatful and feel truly blessed.

<3 5 Days!!!!!!!! =)

the truth and only the truth...and beauty too.

2007-09-20T15:30:29Z

"Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead."

"I don't hate people. I just like it a lot better when they're not around."

"What matters most is how well you walk through the fire."

"Don't try."

Charles Bukowski.

he was NOT a misogynist. he was not a drunk clown.
he was and always will be beautiful.
his critics never did a goddam thing worth criticizing.
there are those that do and those that try.
trying isn't enough.you have to do the thing....
all the way....or just don't try at all.
i agree with him.i don't believe in trying.
you have to do thing and damn the consequences.
if you starve and go mad and die alone in the cold
hard streets...you have to do it.
if everyone tells you not too...you have to do it.
if even your inner demons tell you to give up..you can't.
if you are just going to try...don't.
do it..or fuck it.

he was and will always be hated for telling the truth.

the truth is neither ugly or beautiful..
it is simply the truth.

i miss his writing so much.i'm glad he left poetry for Linda
to publish after his death.
it's like food for my soul..his words.
his brutal honesty comforts me in ways no
sweet lies ever could.
i wonder at times if America will ever produce
a writer like him again.

very few people are that brave and honest any more.

i mourn the passing of Hunter S. and Bukowski and
Burroughs more than i mourn the passing of people i've known personally.
i'm happy for them that they have left this place but they
left us all a little poorer for the lack of their presence.
the truth has always mattered...but now...
we need it more than ever.

beauty is always present...i see it every day.
truth is elusive.

ice_o_lator @ 2007-09-16T20:32:00

2007-09-17T00:41:43Z

There are women of many descriptions
In this queer world, as everyone knows.
Some are living in beautiful mansions,
And are wearing the finest of clothes.
There are blue blooded queens and princesses,
Who have charms made of diamonds and pearl;
But the only and thoroughbred lady
Is the Rebel Girl.

from Rebel Girl by Joe Hill